Dear Catherine

Dear Catherine:
l’m sorry l haven ‘t talked to you in so long.
l feel I’ve been lost…
No bearings, no compass.
l kept crashing into things, a little crazy, l
guess.

I’ve never been lost before.
You were my true north.
l could always steer for home when you
were my home.
Forgive me for being so angry when you left.
l still think some mistake’s been made…and
l’m waiting for God to take it back.
But l’m doing better now.
The work around helps me.
Most of all, you help me.
You came into my dream last night with
that smile… that always held me like a lover…
and rocked me like a child.
All I remember from the dream…
…is a feeling of peace.
I woke up with that feeling…
…and tried to keep it alive as long as I could.
I’m writing to tell you that I’m on a journey
toward that peace.
And to tell you I’m sorry about so many things.
I’m sorry I didn’t take better care of you…
…so you never spent a minute being cold or
scared or sick. ”
”I’m sorry I didn’t try harder to find the
words.. . .to tell you what I was feeling.
I’m sorry I never fixed the screen door.
I fixed it now.
I’m sorry I ever fought with you.
I’m sorry I didn’t apoIogize more.
I was too proud.
I’m sorry I didn’t bring you more
compliments. . .
. . .on everything you wore and every way
you fixed your hair.
I’m sorry I didn’t hold on to you with so
much strength. . .
That even God couldn’t pull you away.
All my love,
M.

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