17 thoughts on “Fool

      • I don’t know…. Then there is collage and then job, then life…. Just locked in a circle with no way out…. Don’t tell me that life after school is better….

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      • it gets better, for a bit, cause you get to breath a little. Take a gap year to rest and figure out what exactly it is you want to do in university/college. That is the one time you should enjoy guiltfree (though I have no idea how your parents would feel about taking a year off studies, before starting university. Mine thought it was a great idea. They got an errand boy hahaha)

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      • Maybe they will oblige, but it’ll get more depressing for me and I’ll get more introverted. Problem is, I usually can’t really stand people at times and I isolate myself…. That only cuts me off…. Taking a year off will give me time to take care of writing and drawing and stuff I love, yes…. But I’ll grow more into myself and it’ll all get worse…. I don’t know…. An eternity won’t be able to make me decide what I want in life and even after the gap when I go back, I’ll be the same breathless, bored, hatred filled person…..
        I guess I’m just frustrated…. I could do with some people and work right now, but hey, it is what it is…. I’m sorry if I’m harsh, really I don’t mean to hurt you Peela…. It’s just that I want to be an immature, stupid, early teens girl again, like before…. But that is not gonna happen…. I’m sorry

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      • Unfortunately, growing up is inevitable in this life my dear. I hate to break your bubble, but you may need to work a little harder at it, especially now that you know it’s a problem that you have. I have a low tolerance for a lot of people too, but I know to live, I need to tolerate even the things that make me angry. But that is just the load that comes with growing up. We have to suck it up, put on our big girl panties and move along. Life owes us nothing. Life was here first. And we will live it behind when we die. SO we have to try and make the best of it. No man is an island at the end of the day sweetheart. ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀

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      • I know…. I would just like to lock myself in during the morning and go out at night, like Arthur Ridley…. But I don’t wanna be a burden and also that’s not a practical way of life…. It’s just that I never really had a stupid, cute childhood with make believe things…. Maybe it was for the good, but I’m really sick of people…. I know how people can be and I also know that not all are bad…. And also, I don’t have an option….. Or maybe it’s just me…. Confused and unable to think like others…..

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