You packed a bag and left.
What was supposed to be a day trip
Became eternity the moment
You boarded that plane.
The flight that sealed your fate
And my fate.
Now you come in my dreams.
17-06-2030
You came to me last night.
You were smiling like the sun.
I felt light in your arms.
We walked in the sunlight,
My hand in yours.
It felt like hours.
Until I woke up.
18-06-2030
You came to me last night.
It was raining.
You pulled me out of the house,
Into the rain.
We danced in it,
Like five year olds.
We got drenched and didn’t care.
Then I woke up.
19-06-2030
You came to me last night.
It was night time.
You climbed into bed with me
And sang me a lullaby
You caressed my cheek
And watched me fall asleep.
And then I woke up.
20-06-2030
I want to sleep but I dread waking up.
I don’t plan to sleep.
Maybe then I won’t have to drag my heavy heart around all day.
Sleep creeps on me,
As the light of the sun touches the horizon.
You didn’t come.
I dragged my heavy heart around all day.
I miss you more when I don’t sleep.
21-06-2030
The bed feels unusually big.
I still manage to fall off.
I cry and scream in my sleep,
The loss feels new again.
The wounds are open and they feel salty.
My heart stings and beats with no real rhythm.
22-06-2030
The days feel long.
The nights feel longer.
I hate mornings.
I hate nights.
I’m in a daze.
And when its not a daze,
It feels like I’m falling.
Without you, my gravity,
I don’t hit the ground.
23-06-2030
I can’t seem to breath right.
I was crying in my sleep again.
This time, you were there
But you didn’t hold me to tell me
Everything would be fine.
You just stood against the wall,
With your head down.
…
12-07-2030
I saw you in my dream again.
It’s been three weeks.
I thought you were gone forever.
You held a candle,
It flickered yellow and red in the dark.
For what felt like ages,
We just stood there,
Looking at each other.
It felt cold.
Distant.
Then you blew the lonely light out.
I woke up in a cold sweat.
It was 4 in the morning.
I started by packing your nightstand.
The light, the candle you held,
That was the signal I had been waiting for- subconsciously.
I was waiting for my heart to tell me I was ready.
Ready to let go.
Ready to mourn.
Ready to stop running.
Running wouldn’t bring you back.
A heartbreaking series of verses. Beautifully crafted and expressed! ❤
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Thanks so much Mags 🙂
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You’re most welcome, Peela. 😊
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This is really beautiful
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Aaw, thanks Debs!
You’ve been missed quite a bit! Welcome back 🙂
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Welcome
Well, I caught up with your posts
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Hehehe you’re too kind!
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Um…..no. Haha. You write well
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Hahahahahaha you just denied being kind!
I have hit a slump lately and I just can’t get past it 😦
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Haha. Cause I know what’s inside.
Me too. I can’t get out of the block. But you will, you are a beautiful, bright Sunshine who lightens the mood with her writings. Look for those photon particles in you and you’ll be fine 😊
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Hehehe aaaw, you’re awfully sweet!! ❤
I am not the only one that needs to find some photon particles in herself huh 😉 🙂 😀
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Not so much 😂😂
I’m trying, but you saw my last story yesterday. It keeps getting worse
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Hahaha you’re being too hard on yourself!
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No, I’m not. You read that, didn’t you? It sucks
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Yes. But it does not suck!! Take it from me! It’s just different from your usual stuff, that’s all. But it’s good
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Oh. Ya, I wanted to try something different…. But it turned out to be weird….
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Hahaha too you the writer, yes
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How are you? Everything good? Health?
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Oh, I’m well thanks Debs. Nothing is painful, so that’s a good indication!
How are you doing?
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I’m doing great. Mostly because of you and Mags. Thanks 💜❤
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Aaw, I’m not sure what we’ve done but we ought to keep doing it huh! ❤ 😍 ❤
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Love you both ❤❤❤😘
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I’m sure I speak for us both when I say we love you too Debs! 😍😘😘😘😘
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That’s so sweet ❤❤❤😘😘
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